Love is not possessive.
— 1 Corinthians 13:4 (NAB)
Having taken several wrong turnings and having to ask for directions from some people I met along the way, I finally found the Al Fresco styled seafood restaurant where I made plans to spend an evening.
As I alight from my car, I could hear a live band performing and a huge crowd inside. Having led to a small table, the next thing that captured my attention and that of many other diners, was the beautiful sunset.
Like most diners, I took the opportunity to capture this beautiful evening with our cellphones. Besides, in view of an unexpected crowd, I was forewarned by the captain that I may have to wait up to an hour before my order is served. So I will have to wait, wait and wait.
Not too long my drink arrived together with some tidbits. The crowd got nosier when the band took a brief break. And when they finally came on stage again, the first number they rendered was Herman’s Hermits, “Listen People” to the hungry crowd. Followed by “My Sentimental Friend.” After which, Shirley joined the band and sang Linda Ronstadt’s “Blue Bayou” ………………….
I feel so bad I got a worried mind
I’m so lonesome all the time
Since I left my baby behind
On Blue Bayou
Saving nickles saving dimes
Working til the sun don’t shine
Looking forward to happier times
On Blue Bayou
I’m coming back someday
Come what may
To Blue Bayou
Where the folks are fine
And the world is mine
On Blue Bayou
Darkness had enveloped the entire place by then. I suddenly remember Jackie. Someone who had been a part of my life for a few years before she finally succumbed to cancer in the mid-nineties. This was also one of her favorite songs and I have the strange feeling of her sitting next to me, happily listening and as usual moving her body in tempo with her favorite song.
We were a very happy couple those days. Initially she took great care of me. And we traveled a fair bit together. Then, when she was diagnosed with cancer, Jackie became a totally different person. Soon she was in and out of the hospital. And after a brief period of fighting with the disease, Jackie, an orphan, was finally laid to rest in peace forever. It was an agonizing thing those days but ……
Where those fishing boats
With their sails afloat
If I could only see
That familiar sunrise
Through sleepy eyes
How happy I’d be
Gonna see my baby again
Gonna be with some of my friends
Maybe I’ll feel better again
On Blue Bayou ………………………………
(Photo – courtesy of: Reflections http://jinjersam.wordpress.com)
“Treasure each other in the recognition that we do not know how long we shall have each other.”
~ Jousha Liebman’
In hindsight, all of us long to be free from our emotional pain and suffering. But, at times, we may have to struggle and struggle very hard in order to understand life, our role, our purpose in it and struggle with so many uncertainties. The sorrow may remain for a season or two, but, wherever love is, love helps us to be free. Because instead of feeling separate from our loved ones, love help us to realize that we are not alone.
May you rest in peace Jackie.